it's been forever..

it definitely has!! it's been so long, i have to look back to see what i last posted about. the epitome of neglect..

i'm currently laying in bed with a migraine, fighting to write this post.

savella: things are going great. i'm not sick like i was the first two days; i've discovered i need to take it after a meal. the flares are definitely under control. i still get joint pain with the weather, and my hand's been swelling a lot lately, but that i can handle it.

so this broken arm; it's healed now and out of the cast. i'm in a brace because after five weeks without movement, i can barely support my wrist. i should be starting therapy soon.

my life's boring. there isn't much going on to write about. sorry =\

happy birthday to me.

so...

i took my little cousin ice skating. now i'm in a full arm cast.

savella day two. again.

i have this overwhelming urge to puke. in the shower this morning, i was leaning on the wall, just waiting for last night's pizza to come up. my hands were trembling and my heart was racing; i can't say i didn't expect it, though.

last night's pain was unbearable. i actually took a pain killer. darrel gave me a full body massage, and even that hurt. i really do need to look into massage therapy, no matter the cost.

the last of 2011.

it's me. you haven't seen my face for a while, i know, and i'm sorry. things have been hectic, and life is slowly getting into a routine for me. i have to look back at other posts to see what i need to update. so much has happened, and i can't really remember the last few posts i did. this is bad =\

school: the semester didn't seem to end well for me. i barely did two decent assignments out of three, my heart and head just wasn't in it. my anxiety was at an all time high this semester, so when it came down to the last few components i needed to get a decent grade, i threw in the towel. i'm not mad in any way, because i know how hard it was for me. normally i wouldn't do this, but i admitted to my professor that i was overwhelmed: big mistake. i told him i had a lot going on in my life, and he decides to turn to the rest of the class with "is this class overwhelming for anyone else? does anyone else have shit going on in their lives?" how dare he? i was in no way using that as an excuse, since i blatantly said i didn't do what he asked, but don't broadcast my business to the rest of the class. 

but that's over. a few days ago, my mom asked what i'm doing next semester, and i said nothing. she flipped at first, but when i explained to her that i really need a break after the riot of this year with my health, she settled down.

i colored my hair a little, this ombre-kinda thing, so it's just the tips. you can't really see it, but i like it. i'm debating if to add more color; i just don't want to fry my hair and have to cut it off. 

sleep apnea: oh. my. goodness. this is torture. 

i got the cpap machine. i have to use it every single night. they're tracking it, and if i don't use it at least four hours a night, my insurance won't pay for it. boo hoo.

 the damn thing falls off almost twice a night. last night it stayed on, though. i noticed my hair plays a big part in keeping it in place. if my hair's in a pony tail, it's too smooth so the band just slides off. my hair's twisted, so there's more texture there for the band to hold on to. i'm glad i figured that out.

i threw a surprise anniversary party for my parents a few weekends ago. they've been married for twenty eight years. i love these old people. it was a lot of fun. my cousin brought his dj equipment and played great music, darrel bought a bunch of party platters from costco, and i got them a really small modern wedding cake. i even made punch de creme for the first time, and it came out really good! alex came up to help out the night before, and we exchanged christmas gifts. she really is one of my closest friends, even if she's four hours away.

christmas was good. darrel got me these toms i've been lusting over, and i got him a home photography studio. our one year anniversary is next weekend, and i can't wait to see what he has planned.

oh, and i'm starting savella again, but at a lower dosage this time. i'll get more into detail in a later post.

business has been decent. i've been really busy this past week! i actually have a meeting in a few hours to talk about expanding, which is why this post is so short.

it's new years eve, i'm about to get started with my usual traditions: i always bring in the new year with clean hair (which i washed last night), a fresh mani and pedi, which i'm about to get ready to take care of, and a new tee. i'll be wearing my babylon cartel tee i bought from my boys gianni and cory. i'm a big supporter of young business people. tonight we're having a small house party at darrel's.

my next post will be in 2012!

happy new year! 

it's almost over.

as usual, i'm swamped with homework and design assignments. i honestly can't wait until its all over. monday can't come fast enough! it's my last class for a while, since i'm taking next semester off.

as soon as i'm done with these assignments, i can write about the last few doctors appointments. i had three in two days. it's crazy.

damn mondays.

today's one of those days i want to cry because i'm feeling so bad. the exhaustion is behind ridiculous, and my hand's swelling to the point where it just hurts.

i'm on my way to school; there's no way i'm making it through the whole class.

crazy nyc weather.